IF YOU SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL [REDACTED], PLEASE KILL IT

by Carson Jordan

I stopped hearing god
after heartbreak
some red wing muse
to pine over

hate to admit
I’ve begged before
Say It Right
say it with flowers
say anything

I visit a club called heaven
where I am bored to tears
sober as the dishes
sober as silence
sober as feeling

do I not have nine lives
do I not have angels on my side

what if god wants me
to steal more, untidy
an earworm
I am your favorite song
so hold it like your breath

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Carson Jordan is a clown and poet living in Brooklyn, NY. You can find her on Instagram at @cahhhhson and Twitter at @carsobthecowgal.